9 months ago
Hi, my name is Isaac Mattos, I am 29 years old, and I have a problem. This problem does not deal with drugs, alcohol, or emotional issues. This problem is something that most people do go through. My problem is that I am unconfident, and unmotivated. I don’t know why I have this problem. This has become an issue because it is causing more problems else where. I want to be able to achieve and succeed with motivation, and confidence. I have this special someone that is my everything. Everything I want in a woman, she has. God, I love her so much. I see her picture, I smile. I talk to her, I smile. I go see her, I smile. I hug her, I smile. I think of her, I smile. I’m happy to have her in my life. Without her I would be stuck with my darker self. She became my light and saved me from myself. Which in return, I WILL do the same for her. I knew I was making her happy, because something she said that no other woman has ever said to me, “You have my heart”, which I already knew I did but I wanted to hear it from her. But now, it’s changed. Now, I’m not so sure if I make her happy. Now all I see is in her eyes is distances. I know she still loves me otherwise she would have left, so why isn’t she happy? Because she doesn’t see any motivation and confidence in me. Things she knows I have in me but never really tapped into it. She believes in me, she sees so much in me, so why I can’t believe in it? Why can’t I see what she sees? It’s frustrating, because the smile I use to see on an angel, is no longer a smile I recognize. I guess I’m telling you this because I’m tired of being unmotivated and unconfident. I want to believe in myself, I want to see what she sees, I want to put a smile on her face again. I don’t want her to get tired to the point that she gives up on me and leaves. Most importantly, I want to do this for my unborn child. A child that I can’t wait to see enter this world. To fill my heart with joy, and put a smile on my face. Which there is a child that my girl has, her little boy. He has become important to me. I love me a lot. At first, he wasn’t fond of me, but after a while, he grew fond of me. I could even say I think he’s starting to love me. So, my friends, my family, how can I motivate and build confidence in myself?